The Called – Cover Reveal

Happy Wednesday Scribblers, I hope your week is going well and you are all doing what you need to, to stay safe and be well. Today I present to you, the new cover for The Called. I’m thrilled with how beautiful the cover turned out, and like with the cover to The Calling, this cover holds insight into the story.

I hope you love it as much as I do. The planned release day April 19th it is however, up for preorder over on Ninestar Press (find the book here) if you preorder there you can get the book on April 16th. Buy links will be available soon, however, once released you will be able to buy it everywhere you buy your books. If possible, I encourage you to go to your local bookstore and ask for it, given the year everyone has had, I know local stores really appreciate our business.

Welcome to the Immortal Community where nothing is as it seems.

Welcome to the Immortal Community where nothing is as it seems.

Here is the blurb for The Called:

The world is changing quickly for Chris now that he’s part of the Immortal Community. With the events of his past finally behind him, he’s still having visions and true magic is gradually taking hold in our world. There are new challenges that the Immortals must face, but Chris is still new and has no real standing in the immortal community. Learning that nothing in the Immortal community is what Chris thought and now having to face new threats, how will his new world unfold? Old enemies must work together and longtime friends may not be trustworthy. Who is lurking in the shadows? Why are they here? What does this mean for witches, immortals and humans?

Can Chris’ visions even be trusted given recent events, and how easily his mind is manipulated? With Juliet, Amanda, and Kirtus by his side they have to prevent the immortal and witch community from being exposed. Can they trust the local witches that are there to assist them? Can they trust their fellow Immortals? New friendships are made, and longtime alliances are called into question. How will The Called defeat these latest threats, and what does it mean for our world?

That’s it for this week. Please consider sharing this post on your social media sites, it really does help to get the word out, as does clicking on this little heart below. Until next time have a great week.

Easter and Passover 2021

Hello Scribblers. I hope you are all taking care of yourselves. Well, Spring has sprung and we are already to Easter and Passover. Today I simply want to thank you all for being here this whole time and let you all know how much I appreciate you. Also, I want to take a moment and wish you all a wonderful Easter and a happy Passover.

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That’s it for now, until next time have a great week.

IQARUS Book Con – May 8, 2021

Happy Wednesday Scribblers, I hope your week is going well and you are all doing what you need to, to stay safe and be well. Today I’m thrilled to share with you an upcoming Book Con I will be part of.  IQARUS: International Queer Authors and Readers Uniting Stories is a new international book con that me and several other authors have been working on for the last several months. I’m excited to share with you the details of the con.

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What is IQARUS Book Con. Let me share. IQARUS Book Con is a series of author readings, discussions panels, and workshops designed to introduce, promote and support outstanding queer genre fiction and related enterprises.

IQARUS Book Con is run by writers who want to showcase the amazing content our community has to offer.

We pledge to build an event that allows our participants to build wings and fly high. This is for fans of all ages, ethnicities, genders, abilities, and orientations in a safe, supported community.

Here is the Agenda for the Day:

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As you can see we have a packed day filled with a little bit of everything. Want to learn more about the agenda click here. You can learn more about our guests here. Also, you can find out more details about out panel discussions here and our reading here.

Also, I encourage you to check out our bookstore (click here) and find some amazing new books and support the authors that are going to be participating in the con.

By the way, have you met Alix Q. Star yet? They are the con mascot. Learn more about them here and check out all the wonderful blog posts so you can get to know our participants, readers, and panelists.

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We are continually updating the site with more and more details so check back often.

And lastly, you can register for the con here.  You aren’t going to want to miss out.

So, there it is, the upcoming IQARUS Book Con. I hope you can make it for the day or even a session.  Oh, and did I mention this is a free con? It is, but if you chose to provide a donation to one of our selected charities you’ll be eligible for some exclusive free offers. Please consider sharing this post on your social media sites, it really does help, as does clicking on this little heart below. Until next time have a great week.

Media Update March 2021

Media Update March 2021

Happy Wednesday Scribblers, I hope you are all having a great week and are taking care of yourselves. Can you believe today is St. Patrick’s Day? We are a few days away from the start of Spring and I can’t believe it. I also, can’t believe we have passed the one-year mark of living with the pandemic. It’s been insane. Today I wanted to take a minute and spot light some of the amazing vlogs and podcasts I’ve been on over the last couple of months, in case you’ve missed them:

In December 2020, I had the joy of being interviewed by the amazing Wayne Goodman from Queer Words Podcast. In this 20-minute interview we talked about my books (including my upcoming novel The Called), my writing, and my life. The interview was great and Wayne is a wonderful host. I encourage you to listen to it, rate it and give it a vote. Click here for the interview.

February 2021, found me sitting back down with Baz over on the WROTE Podcast. Baz and I spent our hour talking about my upcoming release of The Called the sequel to my award-winning novel The Calling. We chatted about virtual cons and my participating in a voting themed limited anthology, A More Perfect Union. Baz and I always have a great conversation, check it out here.

The Bay Area Reporter invited me to write an Op Ed piece for their newspaper regarding A More Perfect Union and why voting is so important. The article appeared on March 3rd. The article turned out fantastic please read it here.

Most recently (March 5th) I got to hang out with life long friend (and brother from another mother) Rob, from What Up With Rob and Chris. We got to sit back and chat about my writing journey, my family, writing inspiration and I share who I would love to cast if and when my novels are turned into movies or television shows. Who knew an hour could fly by so quickly, find the conversation here.

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There are four of my most recent interviews and media events. If you want to see all my media spots and all the places I’ve shared my thoughts and opinion, you can find a full list here under my News section. You will also find a complete list of my Guest Blogs and Author Interviews I’ve done. And that is all for this week, Scribblers. Thank you for taking the time to read this and to continue to support me and my writing. Which interview or article was your favorite? Are there questions you would like for me to answer in upcoming interviews? Let me know in the comments below. Please consider sharing this post on your social media sites, it really does help, as does clicking on this little heart below. Until next time have a great week.

Top Ten things about WE CRY THE SEA

Happy Wednesday everyone this week I want to say a big hello to fellow NineStar Press Author Glenn Quigley who hails all the way from Northern Ireland. As many of you may remember I had Glen on a while ago to talk about his amazing novels the Moth and Moon and the sequel The Lion Lies Waiting, both are fantastic reads find the interview here and pick up the books here. Today he is here to share his Top Ten List for his new novel We Cry the Sea, The Moth and Moon, Book Three hitting bookshelves on March 15.

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Pirates! Something referenced during the first two books in the MOTH AND MOON series, pirates take centre stage in this book. In the real world, the golden age of piracy ended about sixty years before the events of my book but that’s the beauty of fiction writing — we get to craft whatever world we want. I don’t want to spoil what happens but it starts with a daring raid and escalates from there.

Love Triangle! A newcomer arrives in the village and sets his sights squarely on Duncan. Who’s the other man in Duncan’s life? You’ll have to wait to find out.

Pinch! One of the most fun aspects of wiring this story was expanding the role of Arminell Pinch. First seen in book one (The Moth and Moon) as an unnamed tavern girl, she has a much larger role in this book. We get to find out about her family connection to the Moth & Moon, too. (Her mother’s name is one of the best I’ve ever come up with!)

Vince! Robin’s hulking older brother arrives with a bang and makes a lasting impact. Exploring how a surly, sullen, violent ex-criminal fits into gentle island life was a ton of fun to write. Vince made his first appearance in book two (The Lion Lies Waiting) and as soon as he appeared on the page, almost fully-formed, I knew he’d have a larger role to play.

Skinny-dipping! Bathing suits weren’t a thing in the 18th century. Certainly not with men. And certainly not with budding lovers…

Swords! It wouldn’t be a pirate story without some swashbuckling action and a light dusting of swordplay. One sword in particular was a joy to design. Wait until you see how the pirate queen uses it…

Flags! Who doesn’t love a good pirate flag? There are three prominent flags in this story, all of which you can now buy on t-shirts by clicking here.

The skull and cogs is also used as the scene break icon in the print edition of WE CRY THE SEA. The Sea Bear (Pirate King) is the logo I designed a few years ago for my own website and I cannot tell you how happy I was I realised I could use it in this story!

Map! Most of the action in my books takes place on a fictional island called Merryapple and at long last, I’ve drawn a map of it. It will appear in the print edition of WE CRY THE SEA and will also be available on my website. I had some rough sketches to work with, from back when I was writing the first book, and I’ve always tried to remain consistent with landmarks on the island. I resisted making an official map because I didn’t want to be tied down in terms of what is and isn’t on the island but it felt like the right time for one now. I spent a lot of time working on it and to finally have the village and the whole island all laid out is a real thrill for me. There are some places on the map which haven’t shown up in the books yet, but may well do in future stories, and some nods to my family and friends.

Robin! I’d be remiss if I didn’t list burly gay fisherman Robin Shipp as one of my Top Ten! He’s the hero of my novels and the voice I’ve been listening to in my head since I started writing about him in 2017. A big, cuddly, loveable, well-meaning oaf, I absolutely love writing him. Knowing that some readers love him as much as I do means the world to me.

The Moth & Moon! The inn at the heart of these books. The place I want to visit more than any other. Exactly as big as the story needs it to be, exactly as welcoming as you want it to be, The Moth is a place unlike any other. Did you know the name came to me in a dream, years ago? I made a note of it because I was certain it would be useful someday. I had no idea how it would come to shape my life. The Moth’s story began in the year 1401 and for all we know, it’s still standing today. That’s a long life. That’s a lot of stories…

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Thank you Glenn for coming over and chatting with us today. Check out Glenn’s new book available March 15th. Also find Glenn on social media and keep up to date with everything he is up to. Until next time I hope you stay safe and have a great week. 

About Glenn Quigley:

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Glenn Quigley is a graphic designer originally from Dublin and now living in Lisburn, Northern Ireland. He creates bear designs for The Moody Bear (click here). He has been interested in writing since he was a child, as essay writing was the one and only thing he was ever any good at in school. When not writing or designing, he enjoys photography and watercolor painting.

Where to contact Glenn Quigley:

Find him on Twitter here.

Reach him on Facebook here.

Check out his website here.


Where to buy Glenn’s books:

Find them on Amazon here.

Get your copy from Ninestar Press here.

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Rainbow Space Magic – March 2021

Happy Wednesday Scribblers, I hope your March has started off well. Are you as glad to hear, as I am, that we now have three vaccines for the Rona? I can’t wait till it’s my turn to get the shot or shots. It will be a big weight of my shoulders.

Regarding things to look forward too, I hope you have all checked out one of the virtual con’s I’m involved with this year; Rainbow Space Magic (more info here). The con will be the weekend of March 12th so in little over a week. Here are the details:

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Rainbow Space Magic (RSM) is a celebration of the LGBTQ+ science fiction and fantasy community, a place where everyone can gather, discuss, promote and create queer speculative fiction in a safe and supportive place that is accessible to our diverse community.

Join us Friday March 12th through Sunday March 14th, 2021 for this free virtual conference.

This year we are pleased to welcome Jewelle Gomez – author of The Gilda Stories and Bones and Ash, as our Keynote Speaker and special guest throughout the conference.  Jewelle is a two-time Lambda Literary Award recipient with her writings appearing in hundreds of anthologies. She is a prolific play write and presented at the African American Fantastic Imagination, the first conference of black speculative fiction writers. She has also taught creative writing workshops and lectured at institutions around the U.S. including San Francisco State University, Bowdoin College, Cornell University, Spellman College, Bates College, and others. She was on the original board of GLAAD and the Astraea National Lesbian Foundation.

The conference this year will have writing workshops during the day on Friday March 12th prior to our Keynote address Friday night. The rest of the weekend will consist of panels and readings spread out over Saturday and Sunday.

This year we are raising money for Lambda Literary, Glad Day Lit, Trans Media Watch, Shade Literary Group, and BLF Press. Donate to one of these groups and come and join us March 12th – March 14th, 2021. To register and learn more about this exciting event please go to our website: www.rainbowspacemagic.com for more information.

Well, Scribblers, that’s all for this week I hope to see you at the con, I will be on two different panels (Cover so White on Sunday at 7am [PST] and The Queering of Modern Pop Culture in Recent Years on Sunday at 6pm [PST]) it should be a blast. As you all know, I love hearing from folks so please drop me a line in the comments below. Please consider sharing this post on your social media sites, it really does help, as does clicking on this little heart below. Until next time have a great week and see you RSM!

Am I doing too much, or not enough?

Happy Wednesday Scribblers, here we are another week into 2021 and these last two months feel so 2020, but you know what we are making progress and things are getting better. We need to keep our spirits up because we’ve got this. Look how far we’ve come and what we have already survived. Now if you recall, last week I shared with you some announcements (click here for the blog post) and that got me thinking. Am I doing too much, or not enough? I really don’t know.

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This last week I was a guest on WROTE Podcast, if you haven’t checked out the interview here it is for you to listen to, and really you need to listen to it.  We had a blast. However, Baz asked me a question that stopped me dead in my tracts; when do you sleep?

For a second, I froze, I didn’t realize until that moment how much I’ve been doing.  Let me break it down here, so you have some context:

  • I work full-time, Monday -Friday 7:30am – 4:30pm (that’s my day job)

  • I write part-time. Currently I have the following: The Called will be launching April 2021. I have Conspiracy-A New World, Book 3 with my Editor. I’m in various stages of three different works in progress: A Sci-Fi/Urban Fantasy mashup (55,000 words or 205 pages), an Alternate World Urban Fantasy (8,000 words or 33 pages), and an alternate world story (nothing written yet, but characters and story ideas laid out and set to paper).

  • I’m currently involved with two virtual cons; Rainbow Space Magic(RSM) happening March 12th – March 14th, which is an LGBTQIA Sci-Fi and Fantasy Con for readers and authors, check out the information here. IQARUS Book Con is a conference that features all kinds of genres of books and is open to anyone who wants to learn more about great authors, books and writing (happening May 8th) find out more here.

  • Then I’m part of a writers group Bay Area Queer Writers Association (BAQWA) that meets once a month, and we host virtual readings and other book related activities. You can find the group here on Facebook.

  • And for my writing, I manage my website and blog, a Twitter account, a Facebook Page, an Instagram account and now my YouTube channel.  All of which take time to provide and create content for.

  • This doesn’t include any other virtual events (or public events when aloud)

So, yes there is a lot going on, and yes, I’m busy. But here is the rub, what does all this translate to, honestly, not much. If I’m being completely honest, book sales are stalled out and a lot of the time I feel like I’m spinning my wheels; not getting anywhere.

Another author buddy of mine, commented, “with all you’re doing, your book sales should be through the roof.” My response was, “not so much.”

I guess, what this got me thinking is that maybe I’m not doing the right things. Maybe, I’m spreading myself too thin. I’m not sure. All the books and videos I’ve read and watched about being an author and engaging with people say to make it easy for people to find you, to engage with readers where they are. Well, my audience is everywhere. Readers have found me from all the places I’ve mentioned.

What do you think? Am I doing too much? Or, not enough. Do you have suggestions or ideas? Of everything I mentioned above what resonates with you? Do you enjoy the book readings I post on YouTube? Do you enjoy my blogs? What about the content I share on Instagram, Twitter or Facebook? Would you rather I not do any of that and focus on pumping more stories out, keeping in mind that I’m at the will of my publisher so even if I wrote a new story every six months the books are still going to take a year or more to publish.

I will admit, I get tired and I seem to be going every day. In fact, today, I have two zoom meetings, one about RSM and the other my BAQWA group. Then tomorrow I have a meeting with the folks who are working on IQARUSBookCon. However, on the flip side I know several other authors who do way more than I do. They are amazing. These authors pump out the books, engage everyone on social media, have huge followings which leads to great sales. They are incredible and that would be an excellent goal to have.

I do want to make one thing clear, I’m not trying to complain or whine, well maybe a little, I understand how blessed I am. I only want my books to be read and enjoyed. I want to know that there are people out there who love my work as much as I do. I really don’t do all this for me (well I write the stories for me). I do all the social media, the events, cons, etc. for you and to help others like you find my novels, so everyone can, hopefully, enjoy the works and see themselves reflected in the stories. After all, everyone wants to be seen and heard. And we all want to be the hero of our own story.

There you have it, Scribblers, that is my writing world in a nut shell this week. Thank you for taking the time to read this and to continue to support me. I’m curious, what do you think about all this? Let me know in the comments below. Please consider sharing this post on your social media sites, it really does help, as does clicking on this little heart below. Until next time have a great week.

Writing Update and Book Announcement – The Called

Happy Wednesday Scribblers, I hope you all had a great Valentine’s Day and President’s Day. Reminder if you can get the vaccine please get it. In the mean time I hope you are wearing your mask, washing your hands, practicing your social distancing, and more importantly staying safe. I have been so encouraged hearing that the US has passed the 50 million vaccine mark and that hospitalization are going down. There is still a long road ahead of us, but we are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

Enough about that. Today I wanted to share my book announcement and a couple of writing updates.

Like the title says, The Called is on it’s way. This is the sequel to my internationally award-winning debut novel The Calling. The Called is schedule to be released on April 19th and I can’t wait.  Here is the blurb from the book… so spoilers if you haven’t read the first book The Calling (and why haven’t you read The Calling yet? You really need to, buy your copy here or get your signed copy here.):

The world is changing quickly for Chris now that he’s part of the Immortal Community. With the events of his past finally behind him, he’s still having visions and true magic is gradually taking hold in our world. There are new challenges that the Immortals must face, but Chris is still new and has no real standing in the immortal community. Learning that nothing in the Immortal community is what Chris thought and now having to face new threats, how will his new world unfold? Old enemies must work together and longtime friends may not be trustworthy. Who is lurking in the shadows? Why are they here? What does this mean for witches, immortals and humans?

Can Chris’ visions even be trusted given recent events, and how easily his mind is manipulated? With Juliet, Amanda, and Kirtus by his side they have to prevent the immortal and witch community from being exposed. Can they trust the local witches that are there to assist them? Can they trust their fellow Immortals? New friendships are made, and longtime alliances are called into question. How will The Called defeat these latest threats, and what does it mean for our world?

This story is going to pick up right at the end of book one. In fact, the last chapter of The Calling, is the first chapter of The Called (Find out more about both books here). So, there will be no time jump. I’m proud of this duology and I can’t wait for folks to be able to pick up their own copy and enjoy. Also, in The Called we are going to expand on some popular characters from The Calling and introduce some fantastic new characters in The Called, which I’m thrilled to finally add into the story.

Here is a beautiful graphic that will give you an idea of the feel of The Called :

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Also, as I hope many of you have seen by now I’ve been working on my YouTube channel, click here. I’ve been cleaning up the channel, making it more user friendly, organizing it, updating content, and adding the various engagements I’ve had: including appearances on OUTLook Video, LocalLit 2020 as well as some other fun readings and events that I’m able to share.

To celebrate my revamped channel, I’ve set up a challenge, if I can get 250 subscribers (clearly a lofty goal) by April 19th I have something really fun planned. The surprise will coincide with the launch of The Called. Help me spread the word and meet this goal.  I know with all your help and support we can reach 250. In the meantime, I’m going to be adding more readings and other content to my channel so I hope you will follow me there, plus you get to see me in my natural habitat, my home.

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As a reminder on March 12th – 14th I will be participating at the Rainbow Space Magic Conference. This three-day virtual event is packed full of great content for readers, writers, and anyone who loves books. Learn more about it here.

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Also, on May 8th I and several other amazing authors will be holding the first ever virtual IQARUS Book Con. This international event is open to everyone. We will have panel discussions about writing, marketing/social media, podcasts, vlogging, editing, etc. Also, we will host both live and video readings from authors of romance, horror, sci-fi, contemporary, all sorts of genres, so there is something for everyone. Check it out here.

Well, Scribblers, that’s all for this week. If you want to learn more about what I have coming up next check out my events page here. I love hearing from folks so please drop me a line in the comments below. Please consider sharing this post on your social media sites, it really does help, as does clicking on this little heart below. Until next time have a great week.

Rainbow Space Magic 2021 Virtual Conference

RSM 2021 – Announcement

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Rainbow Space Magic (RSM) is a celebration of the LGBTQ+ science fiction and fantasy community, a place where everyone can gather, discuss, promote and create queer speculative fiction in a safe and supportive place that is accessible to our diverse community.

Join us Friday March 12th through Sunday March 14th, 2021 for this free virtual conference.

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This year we are pleased to welcome Jewelle Gomez – author of The Gilda Stories and Bones and Ash, as our Keynote Speaker and special guest throughout the conference.  Jewelle is a two-time Lambda Literary Award recipient with her writings appearing in hundreds of anthologies. She is a prolific play write and presented at the African American Fantastic Imagination, the first conference of black speculative fiction writers. She has also taught creative writing workshops and lectured at institutions around the U.S. including San Francisco State University, Bowdoin College, Cornell University, Spellman College, Bates College, and others. She was on the original board of GLAAD and the Astraea National Lesbian Foundation.

The conference this year will have writing workshops during the day on Friday prior to our Keynote address Friday night. The rest of the weekend will consist of panels and readings spread out over Saturday and Sunday.

Current Writing Workshops include:

  • Combat Writing

  • Book Justice: Criminal Justice for Authors

  • The Writer’s Guide to Green Stuff: Plants, Herbs, and Wild Places That Make Sense

  • Branding Sci-Fi

Panel Discussions include:

  • Writing Queer Female Protagonists (#Ownvoices lead panel)

  • Magic and Folklore

  • Writing for Bisexual and Pansexual Characters (#Ownvoices lead panel)

  • Aging in Queer Spec Fic

  • Dis/Abilities: Disabled, Chronically Ill, and Neurodiversity in Queer Fiction (#Ownvoices lead panel)

  • Queer Role-Playing Games

  • Fandom and Fanfiction

  • Covers so White

  • Intersectional Identity (#Ownvoices lead panel)

  • Query Letters and Getting an Agent

  • Humor and Cynicism

  • The Queering of Modern Pop Culture in Recent Years

This year we are raising money for Lambda Literary, Glad Day Lit, Trans Media Watch, Shade Literary Group, and BLF Press. Donate to one of these groups and come and join us March 12th – March 14th, 2021. To register and learn more about this exciting event please go to our website here for more information.

Top Ten List-Mr. Sticker (A More Perfect Union)

Happy Wednesday Scribblers. We are in a new year and last week we welcomed a new President and Vice-President. This week I’m pleased to introduce you to Adrienne Bell. Not only is Adrienne a fellow native of the SF Bay Area, but she is a romance writer and lover of Disneyland, which already makes her pretty cool in my book. I got to meet Adrienne through working on the anthology A More Perfect Union that I’m apart of, and today, she’s here to share her Top-Ten List about her short story Mr. Sticker that features in A More Perfect Union, let’s get to know more about Mr. Sticker...

Top Ten Things About Mr. Sticker

  1. It’s based on my favorite part of voting—the I Voted sticker you get at the end.

  2. It’s short, and that’s hard. You’d think that writing a short story would be easier than a full length novel, but creating a story with a satisfying beginning, middle, and end—not to mention one that hits all the right beats and meets all the genre expectations—in only a few thousand words is anything but.

  3. I’ve done a good deal of political volunteering—voter registration drives, canvassing for candidates, working on local campaigns—but the one thing I haven’t done is volunteer to be a poll worker…yet. It’s on the list though!

  4. Because I wasn’t familiar with the ins and outs of being a poll worker, I had to go to my favorite research site to learn all about it—YouTube. And let me tell you, you haven’t lived until you’ve spent an hour and half in front of a poll worker training video.

  5. Just like Evie in the story, I did dye my hair blue and pink for a while, but, dang, it was hard to keep up.

  6. While Mr. Sticker revolves around flirting, I am terrible at it in real life. Fortunately, my husband and I recently celebrated our 20th wedding anniversary, so I haven’t had to worry about unleashing my sub-par skills on the public in a long time.

  7. Like Evie in the story, my husband is a music teacher, and one who believes that everyone can learn how to play. He even taught me to play the ukulele during the pandemic. I’m still terrible at it, but that’s on me, not him.

  8. Some punny names my family suggested for Mr. Sticker (and I immediately rejected) were—Love Ballot, The Love Vote, and Erection Day. Seriously, pray for me.

  9. Some of my earliest memories are of tagging along with my parents when they went to the polls to vote. Their example is what’s led me to never miss an election.

  10. 100% of the proceeds of A More Perfect Union will be donated to Fair Fight, an organization dedicated to combatting voter suppression.

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There you have it, ten things about Mr. Sticker. Thank you so much for stopping by today, Adrienne and congratulations on all your amazing works. Do you have any questions for Adrienne? Leave them below.

Want to read some more of my Top Ten Lists and learn about some great authors and their works, check these out:

Top Ten List-Give Way with Valentine Wheeler click here.

Top Ten List with Abigail de Niverville, click here.

Top Ten List with Schuyler L'Roux, click here.

Top Ten List with Jacqueline Church Simonds, click here.

Top Ten List with Kay Doherty, click here.

That’s it for today. Please remember to drop me a heart/like letting me know you stopped by. If you want to help support my blog, please consider sharing this post on your social media platforms to help keep the conversation going. Until next time I hope you stay safe and have a great week.

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About A More Perfect Union:

Love wins in this collection of nine all new, voting-themed romances.

A set of bite-sized romance short stories with 100% of the proceeds benefiting Fair Fight, an organization dedicated to combatting voter suppression.

From the campaign headquarters to the polls, A More Perfect Union features brand new stories from:

Adrienne Bell

Kilby Blades

Aliza Mann

Claire Marti

R.L. Merrill

M.D. Neu

Dawn Montgomery

Sera Taino

Kearney Wentworth

Buy A More Perfect Union here.

About Adrienne Bell:

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Adrienne Bell is the author of over a dozen action-packed romances including the bestselling contemporary Second Service series and the new Exiles of the Realm paranormal series. She loves nothing more than writing quirky heroines with a knack for finding trouble and the hardheaded heroes who help them fight their way out of it. Adrienne lives with her husband and sons on the far edge of the San Francisco Bay Area where she spends her downtime reading, binge watching nerdy television, and scrolling through Disneyland fan websites.

Find Adrienne Bell on her website here.

Interview with Charles Joseph Albert

Happy Wednesday Scribblers, I hope you are all having a great week so far. This week I’m excited to bring to you a San Francisco Bay Area local author Charles Joseph Albert. Charles isn’t just an author and poet, he also holds a PhD in nuclear physics.  I had the pleasure of meeting Charles at the LocalLit 2020 event jointly hosted by the San Jose Public Library and San Jose State in December (you can learn more about the event and the other authors here).

Welcome Charles, thank you for stopping by today. We have your bio below, by way of introduction, why don’t you share with us something that isn’t in your bio.

Hi, M.D., it was great to meet you at LocalLit. I’m really inspired by your accomplishments as a writer!

One thing I don’t put in my bio is that I play the trombone (yes, my neighbors hate me). For the past three years I’ve played with the South Bay Bones, a trombone choir. Everything from baroque to jazz to movie theme songs. It’s a real hoot (pun intended).

I understand from your bio, and as mentioned above, you have a PhD in nuclear physics. I can’t imagine how much work went into earning that degree. What drew you to nuclear physics? Considering the specialized knowledge that goes into that kind of degree, do you find that you use that experience in your day-to-day work life? And how does that education affect your writing?

Studying theoretical physics was an amazing experience. Granted, it got a little math heavy, but there’s something mind-blowingly crazy about looking at the equation that explains why the sky is blue. Or that predicts the decay rate of a proton. Really, the last few years of grad school were like some kind of calculus-based acid trip.

Useful in day-to-day work? No, you’ve got me there. Though I do find it creeping into my writing occasionally. There’s a few stories in my collection “A Thousand Ways to Fail” that involve physics students.

You mention also that you’ve been working in a variety of disciplines from Environmental Management to computer consulting to metallurgy. Those, to my mind, all seem extremely different and specialized fields. How did you make your way into those fields?

Hah! Not on purpose, you can bet!

I was intending to be a physics professor. The thing is, I got my degree right after the Berlin Wall fell, and the West became flooded with cheap Eastern European physicists... at the same time that Uncle Sam cut back the cold-war physics research. So my teaching prospects grew very dim indeed.

But this was also right after Earth Day 1990,  which is what inspired me to get a job doing computer modeling of air pollution in Austin, Texas. When I was ready to move back home to California, the only job offer I got was with an old pal from Berkeley doing computer consulting.

The last client I had was my dad, a metallurgist, who needed computer help in a lawsuit he was working on. He kind of lured me into coming to work for him, even though I had once promised myself I would never do that.

That was over twenty years ago!

Let’s move over to your writing, you’ve written three works of fiction and five poetry collections, plus you have numerous published poems. What has your writing journey been like? What is it you enjoy most about writing?

Writing was something I’ve loved to do since elementary school. But frankly, it’s a lot harder than physics. In physics you can spend your entire career focusing on one little oddball idea. As a writer, you have to keep throwing one oddball idea after another at your readers, or you’ll lose them. 

One of the best things about writing are the “a-ha” moments you can uncover. In a story or a poem. An insight that strikes you as so profound or so true that you’re literally (literarily?) glad to be alive. I felt that way reading Robert Frost’s “The Runaway” when I was eleven, and was hooked on poetry ever since.

Another great discovery for a reader is a character that you can just completely fall in love with. Which I did with Elizabeth Bennet, in “Pride and Prejudice.” And Theodore Decker of “The Goldfinch.” So it became one of my literary ambitions to give birth to such a protagonist.

The Absent and the Dead & Other Stories is your latest work having been released in February 2020. What can you tell us about this collection of stories? What ties all these works together?  Regarding this collection of shorts is there a common theme you were going for? What is it about these stories that made you want to put them all together?

The theme for this collection was summed up by the title of the last story (also the title of the collection). It’s all absence and death. But each one is a very different take on those two cheery subjects, and many are quite tongue-in-cheek.

Another thing that made me think this could work as a coherent collection is that many of the stories are based on people in my family (with huge liberties taken). Although, given how incoherent my family can be, that may have been a mistake.

But at least, basing some characters on family members helped me to more fully develop them, and hopefully the reader will get a glimpse of how loveable some of them are, despite the looniness.

Since you also write poetry, what is it about poetry you enjoy writing? I dabble a little in poetry myself (find my poems here) and for me it’s about emotion. What is it you try to say with your poetry work? Is there a poem you are particularly proud of? Would you like to share a bit of it here with us today? 

M.D., I am a huge admirer of writers like you who can bring emotion to a poem and really remind the reader of the glories and pains of existence in that way. It’s a faculty I can’t claim to have, and often the best I can hope for is one of those “a-ha” moments. Here’s an example--the title poem from my second collection.

Essentialism

Last night, on Market Street, I stripped my clothes;
"Must be the 'nude in public' dream," I thought,
and forced a sheepish grin at passers by,
nonplussed by such an urge to bare myself.
Then, nudity was not enough. How I
removed the human form in which we're caught,
was not the snakelike shedding you'd suppose.

More like I'd peeled off false reality,
cut through a dirty screen to see what shone.
The light was me—pure energy, pure joy.
And yet I somehow still felt like that self
I first had grown aware of as a boy—
the way electric current, through a phone,
holds disembodied personality.

The strangest feeling came upon me next,
as though I'd joined with all the universe.
I'd smashed the vessel that had held me whole,
and spilled the hot quicksilver of the self,
but didn't dissipate my fragile soul,
just freed it from its solitary curse—
the fleshly membrane keeping it perplexed.

That dream had looked beyond the mausoleum
that many say will be our final fate,
but who can tell which visions are mistakes?
I'm in no rush to find out for myself
if there's some inner light that dying wakes,
or if both shell and soul disintegrate…

either bears out Horace. Carpe diem.

What do you want people to get from your stories? Is there a message that you want readers to walk away with?

I go into each story looking for something to captivate me, to really grab my attention and make me say, “huh, that’s a new one.” And, if possible, to introduce myself to some well-fleshed character. Human frailties, maybe, but basically a good heart. So hopefully anyone coming along for the ride will get some enjoyment from what I’m doing.

What can we see coming out from you next?

My first novel, The Unsettler, was published in installments by SERIAL Magazine, and in 2021 the full story will come out in book form. It’s set in a dystopian 22nd century Bay Area, after a red-blue war has torn the country in two.

I also have another poetry collection coming out in 2021: “Apparently.” This collection of new and previously-published poems focuses specifically on the theme of fatherhood. I hope it’s got a touch more of that pure gold--emotion--in it, than my earlier works. 

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Charles thank you for joining me today. I’ve enjoyed this opportunity to get to learn more about you and your amazing work.

Do you want to continue to learn about more amazing authors check out these authors here:

Meet Gar McVey-Russell here.

Meet Valentine Wheeler here.

Meet Liz Faraim here.

Meet J.S. Strange here.

Well, Scribblers, that’s all for this week. If you have questions for Charles please drop them in the comments below. Don’t forget to share this interview it really does help, as does clicking on the little heart below. Until next time have a great week.


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About The Absent and the Dead & Other Stories:

Fourteen stories of absence, mourning, death, second chances, living, conception, adventure, and, above all, humor. These stories dare to ask the biggest questions, even in the smallest moments. Imagine Roald Dahl and Ray Bradbury getting drunk and re-writing thirteen stories by James Joyce & this is what you might get.

Find out more on Amazon here.

Find out more on Barnes and Noble here.


About Charles Joseph Albert:

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Charles Joseph Albert lives in the Bay Area, works as a metallurgist, and does his writing late at night when the kids have gone to bed. His poetry and fiction has recently appeared in Caesura, Fiction International, Spectrum Magazine, California Quarterly, and SERIAL Magazine.


Where to Find Charles:

Website here.

Goodreads here.

Facebook here.

Top Ten List-Give Way with Valentine Wheeler

Happy New Year and happy Wednesday Scribblers. I hope your New Year is off to a positive start. This week I’m excited to bring back author Valentine Wheeler to share their Top Ten List about one of their main characters Awais Siddiqui in their new book Give Way (released on January 4, 2021 find it here). As a reminder, Valentine is a Queer Romance, Fantasy and Science Fiction author who is published through NineStar Press (learn more here). Also, Valentine is part of Wizards in Space Literary Magazine (learn more here). Let’s get started.

Give Way features some of Valentine’s favorite things: baked goods, big queer communities, old friends who like to give you shit, and postal workers! In the meantime, let’s get to know one of the main characters...

Ten Packages Awais Siddiqui Delivered this Holiday Season

  1. The first package he delivered in Swanley after his transfer. A big box of books, nearly 40 pounds, to Jolene McGonnigal at 61 Tremont Street, two houses down from his aunt Fatima’s house. Jolene hadn’t seen Awais in thirty years, but when she opened the door she smiled at him, called him by name, and welcomed him back to Swanley. (Of course, she’d then asked him if he could carry the box all the way inside, and her cat had nearly killed him by winding between his ankles as he navigated her narrow hallways with a gigantic package. But she’d given him a signed copy of The Fifth Season in thanks, since she ran the signing events at Turkey Creek Books in her spare time. The book had made him cry, but it was worth it.)

  2. A slightly-battered small parcel from Egypt addressed to Rana Wahbi at 36 Tremont Street. She clutched it to her chest and thanked him so graciously when he handed it over that she halted him in his tracks. She told him it was her grandfather’s journal, something a cousin had found while clearing out old boxes of family detritus, and it had almost been thrown away. And then she promised him a free sandwich next time he stopped by her restaurant.

  3. A small, neatly-addressed box with nearly $40 in postage and a signature required addressed to Michaela McNamara over on Dighton Street. She opened the door, took one look at the sender’s address, and shook her head. “Nope,” she said. “He knows exactly where he can shove it.” She handed him the package, then disappeared back inside the house, leaving Awais standing on the porch. He still didn’t have the full story, but he really, really wanted to know what the hell that was about.

  4. A package to 77 Billerica Drive, addressed to Latify Thibeault on December 1. He doesn’t remember the package specifically, other than that it was small and square and nothing out of the ordinary about it, but when he opened the mailbox to stick it inside, he’d found an envelope. He went to toss it with his outgoing mail, but then he noticed the writing on the front: To Awais, our substitute carrier. Welcome back to Swanley, and thanks for the deliveries :) Love, Latify and Henri. He’d had to take a long moment to pull himself together after that one–they must have called the office to get his name, worried their regular wouldn’t share his tips with him. It was an act of generosity he hadn’t expected.

  5. A small, dense, tightly plastic-wrapped box to Anthony Sullivan at 17 Chestnut Street that smelled overwhelmingly of pot. Hey, if it made it this far, Awais wasn’t one to judge. He left it on the porch wrapped in a SORRY YOUR PACKAGE WAS DAMAGED bag, just to give the guy a little a reminder that the mail might not be the best way to get this particular kind of package–especially since the return address was just a few towns over in Needham. Maybe next time he’d drive his federal crimes instead.

  6. A small white padded mailer to Scotty Pillon at 14 Milton Avenue, Apartment 1. Scotty–who owned route 16, the one Awais liked covering most because it had a nice long section of close-together houses with mailboxes right on the street–opened the door just as Awais opened his mailbox to drop the parcel in. He’d handed it to Scotty instead, sharing a brief smile at the irony of the encounter, and moved on to tuck Lucy Smith’s mail in the box for the upstairs apartment. When Awais turned back toward the door, Scotty had ripped open the package and was clutching its contents, standing stock still.

    “What is it?” Awais asked, and Scotty turned toward Awais to show him a bright, bold They/Them pin. Awais clapped them on the shoulder and grinned. “For work?”

    Scotty nodded.

    “I’ll get a He/Him,” said Awais. “Solidarity.”

    Scotty swallowed hard and nodded again. “Thanks, man.”

  7. A long, thin package with a bent end that was obviously a hockey stick to David Shapiro at 144 Pond Road. When his mom Lila opened the door and called him down to sign for it–which, though not technically allowed since he was ten, was adorable–he’d barrelled down the stairs, gasped, and said to Lila, “A package for me? What’s inside it?” The look of sheer parental doneness Lila had given Awais was worth the whole two hours of overtime he’d just worked.

  8. A rooster, express mail to 93 Old Medfield Road. It rode up front with him, and the thing made terrifying dinosaur noises the whole time. Awais wasn’t afraid of birds. He just had a healthy respect for them. A very healthy, very distanced respect. And honestly, he’d rather not ever share a vehicle with one again. The baby chicks? Fine, small, cute. The full-grown version? No thank you.

  9. A holiday gift box of fancy pears, apples, and oranges to Windmere Bakery. The kid behind the counter had torn the box open and immediately offered Awais his choice of fruit. Awais, who’d forgotten his lunch at home, enjoyed the world’s most perfect pear on his walk to his next stop at the Cairo Grill, where Rana Wahbi gave him the promised free shawarma. That was a good day.

  10. One small brown box to 210 Washakum Ave Apartment 8, because the man who’d taken it from him–cute, flustered, very dapper–had blushed, given him a helpless up-and-down look, and immediately, accidentally declared his singleness. Awais is pretty sure nothing’s going to beat that one.

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Thank you so much for stopping by today, Valentine and congratulations on the new book. I’m looking forward to reading Give Way and learning more about Awais and the other characters in the story. It was great having you. Do you have questions for Valentine? Leave them below and I’ll be sure to have her swing by and answer them.

Want to read some more of my Top Ten Lists and learn about some great authors and their works, check these out:

 Top Ten Vloggers I follow, click here.

Top Ten List with Abigail de Niverville, click here.

Top Ten List with Schuyler L'Roux, click here.

Top Ten List with Jacqueline Church Simonds, click here.

Top Ten List with Kay Doherty, click here.

Top ten inspirations for Taking the Plunge by J.B. Reynolds, click here.

I hope you enjoyed getting to know more about Valentine’s character Awais Siddiqui.  Please remember to drop me a heart/like letting me know you stopped by. If you want to help support me and Valentine, please consider sharing this post on your social media platforms to help keep the conversation going. Until next time I hope you stay safe and have a great week. 

About Give Way:

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Kevin McNamara’s post-retirement life is… fine. He has friends, a few consulting gigs, and an ex-wife he’s finally on good terms with. But when he meets an intriguing stranger–a rarity in close-knit Swanley–he can’t stop thinking about the hot mailman or the unexpected attraction that knocked him flat.

Awais Siddiqui never thought he’d want to come back to his childhood hometown, but when his grandmother falls ill, he’s the only one who can help his aunt keep an eye on her. Awais figures he’ll be back in the city soon enough–but then a silver fox on his route catches his eye.

Can Awais deliver the spark Kevin’s been missing?

Buy Give Way here on Amazon and here from NineStar Press.


About Valentine Wheeler:

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Valentine Wheeler (she/her) lives outside Boston with her spouse and child and spends her days chasing mail carriers and citing obscure postal regulations. She goes by Lis in meatspace and her life's ambition is to eat the food of every country.

Find her on twitter or goodreads and her work at Ninestar Press and the Future Fire. She also serves as Fiction Editor and Logistics Manager for Wizards in Space Literary Magazine, as Logistics Wizard and Managing Editor for Mermaids Monthly, and as a slushreader for various genre publications.

Where to Find Valentine Wheeler:

Twitter: @ghostalservice

Interview with Ava Kelly

Happy Wednesday Scribblers, can you believe that we are only a little over two weeks from leaving 2020 behind us. I can’t say I’m going to miss this year. Also, I want to wish you all a very merry Christmas. I hope you enjoy the holiday season however you celebrate. This week I would like to welcome Ava Kelly to my Scribbles page for a chat about their newest novel.

Welcome Ava, thank you for taking the time to drop by and chatting with us. We have your bio below, by way of introduction, why don’t you share with us something that isn’t in your bio.

Hello, everyone. Thank you for having me. One thing not on my website is that I’m Romanian. Around the world, this word means different things. As a people, we are seen through a sort of translucent glass scratched over by the sway of mass-media projections. Growing up Romanian, though, I’ve had a unique cultural perspective. This is a nation that endures. Not without costs, not without sacrifice, but always with a drive to keep going. Prevalent throughout our folklore, our customs and literature, is this very spirit that you can find in my writing. Everyday paganism, the deconstruction—or better said reconstruction—of the Romanian myth… and garlic.

You are one of the more interesting creative types I’ve had on my blog. Firstly, you’re an engineer. Then, you’re an artist specializing in conceptual photography. But wait there’s more, you’re also working on artificial intelligence and robots. And on top of that you’re a writer, with five books, ten anthologies, and other short stories all out in the world. Where do you find the energy? Of all your endeavors which is your favorite?

Where does all that energy come from—starting with the hard questions! I’ve been asked that before. “Do you ever sleep,” someone once said, incredulous. While this is a tremendous opportunity to claim cryptid status, truth is that I do sleep. Once a century! No. There is no magic, however. We do things at our own pace. In my life I’ve been driven by three forces—curiosity: the knowing of new things, exploring the limits of my knowledge, pushing past the boundaries of what is familiar; an overflowing desire to reach out into the ether with stories of kindness, to make voices like my own heard, loud and clear; and the petty determination to not let the world of malice tell me I’m unworthy. I will continue to stand.

My favorite and so far most satisfying endeavor has been writing fiction. It allows for a multidimensional one-on-one channel to be open between me and the reader. A book, a story in words, creates an intimate dialogue. As I write, I whisper parts of myself in between letters, carried upon alliterations and metaphors. It is not a finite yelling into the void, but something that grows with each new story. It is the sort of connection that can only come from sharing experience and thoughts. Not being explicit shelters it from consumption, instead turning it into a precious singularity to be cherished away from prying eyes. Somewhere, out there, is at least one person who read my words and understood me and felt what I did when writing. And that is marvelous.

Okay, I have to ask about the AI and robots. Are you working on Skynet? Are you going to be one of the engineers that causes our AI overlords to come to be? What is it like tinkering around with such things? Do you worry we might take the technology too far?

It’s interesting. Engineering, I keep saying, is an artform—based on creation, on imagination, on using existing tools to build something new. But the thing about technology is that, in itself, tech is neither good, nor evil. It doesn’t have an intent or a purpose derived within itself. Tech is only as dangerous as the people wielding it.

We are nowhere near enough to the artificial intelligence seen in fiction. The systems around us have functionalities that make them appear smart, some of them even learn from us and surprise us with their knowledge. A lot are vulnerable, and it isn’t a good idea to trust the tech, not yet. But let’s ask ourselves, why are they vulnerable? Because it is humans that attempt to exploit other humans. Quite a few intelligent algorithms were proven to be biased and racist. But why? Because the data generated by humans was such. These systems are like pets that learn from us, so it is our fellow humans we should be wary of.

Things aren’t as gloomy. Ever since the gross violations of privacy by certain big-name systems, the AI community at large has risen to these challenges and a new paradigm has issued a call to arms. Explainable AI, where we can account for every decision such a system makes, so that exploitation, manipulation, and bias are removed. It’s a baby field, and I, as many others, am working toward this goal.

If we fail it is because we—humanity—have done it to ourselves (arguably, we’d deserve it). Maybe our second evolution will do better.

Let’s move over to your photography, what about photography do you love? Is it the balance of colors, light, subject matter, etc. what is it?

Photography was one of my earliest mediums of self-expression. I wanted to tell stories and the challenge of capturing an entire narrative into one or a handful of frames was enticing. Most of all, I wanted to see if I can tell stories with inanimate objects instead of characters with implicit sentience. Here, a work titled Kiss of Life. What does it tell you? Is it the story of a futuristic doctor hunting down an alien lifeform to cure their ill child? Is it a necromancer preparing potions? Or is it the last drop of blood of someone fallen in battle, preserved for eternity, so that one day their ancestor could fight a curse? You decide.

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Now that we’ve gotten to know more about you, let’s talk about your writing and your latest book Catch a Falling Snowflake, tell us about it. Why did you feel this story needed to be told?

Catch a Falling Snowflake is a story of—I like to call it—not being ready. Queerness, especially in this allocishet world, means reinventing family. The bonds we build with other people are not necessarily driven by a biological connection, but by belonging. It is why the found family trope is so popular among queer people—and I must admit a mighty weakness for it. In less open societies, though, the pressure to become an adult, to “matter” in a palpably perceived way, is often reduced to procreation. Relatives, friends, and even complete strangers demand that one produces progeny. I’ve been telling people for over two decades that I don’t want children, and the condescending answer is that I’ll change my mind one day. If a child were to drop in my life suddenly, would I be able to care for it? I don’t know.

Some people are ready for kids, others are not. And that’s okay. We should have a right to choose without stigma or being shunned, and definitely without having to explain ourselves. In Catch a Falling Snowflake a couple struggles with this when one of them wants a child while the other realizes he doesn’t. He’s not ready. Society might demand we grit our teeth for the sake of our young, but… we must also recognize when we are unable to parent. A life is a precious responsibility.

You mention representation matters (which I agree 100% with) so tell me what does representation look like to you. Why does it matter so much?  How would you like to see representation grow in the coming years?

Humans are not one-dimensional. They have facets and layers and depth. It is not all about skin color or orientation, but also about culture and background and mental diversity. This is the sort of representation we need. A wide array of variety, on more than one front. An infinitely-sided coin. I want to see characters who are not reduced to one characteristic, but groups in which intersecting dimensions converge to build a reflection of the world. Or at least how the world should be, because I want to see this diversity—of identity and the self we choose to share—be met with immediate and unconditional acceptance. With respect.

Representation matters because knowledge matters. Whether we recognize it or not, what we know shapes our beliefs and values. We draw conclusions from what we learn, we apply them to ourselves and our behavior. Seeing examples of diversity in media (movies, shows, books, music, art at large) allows us to better understand ourselves. To explain inner tumult, to accept and cherish what we are. The alternative is happening all around us: internalized phobias, self-hatred, fear that leads to anger and more, even violent, hatred.

Humans, for all the ways in which they are the same, are different. In complex systems theory, diversity is one of the driving forces behind emergence, adaptation, and ultimately evolution. Recombination from the same gene pool only leads to degradation. This is valid for cultural advance as well. When similarity is enforced, unyielding rejection brews systemic oppression, long-term denial of human rights, violence. Yet, these are not the markers of civilization. 

Understanding the ways in which others vary can only mitigate fear. Fostering respect for diversity can only improve the exchange of cultural genes so that, as a whole, we reach forward instead of sliding back into the mud. 

What can you tell us about the characters of your book? What can you tell us about Nick and Leon?

Catch a Falling Snowflake is the fourth story in its series. There are three couples and two children at the front, but Nick and Leon are the focus. Leon is black trans man with a positive outlook on life. Nick has a long history of struggling with trauma and mental illness. Neither is perfect, they have their flaws, but they thrive on communication. Their relationship is built on a sort of understanding of each other that allows them to recognize when that communication falters. They enjoy trying things for each other, but ultimately their want to see the other happy can lead them to forgetting about themselves, which is just as important in a relationship. So, the question we ask is, can they meet in the middle? If so, what does this middle look like

What do you want people to get from your stories? Is there a message that you want readers to walk away with?

Celebrate—normalize—healthy relationships. Address trauma. Sometimes softness is what we need from a story instead of violence, and I wish this to be recognized more and more. Happy endings are possible, we should aim for them. And stories with queer identities aren’t always about “the struggle,” aren’t meant for educating the allocishet society, but for queer people being queer while doing ordinary or heroic or villainous things.

What can we see coming out from you next?

Right now I’m working on a sequel for Havesskadi, a high fantasy novel that won the Rainbow Award in 2019. It has dragons, a quest, magic, and a lot of Dacian and Romanian folklore-inspired elements. 2021 will see another series of twelve monthly stories—the 2020 collection is free to download on my website, called Aegis Alight.

A surprise—with dragons!—is coming soon, so keep an eye out on my social media channels.

Thank you for having me today. Hope you have a relaxing end-of-the-year!

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Ava thank you so much for stopping by today and chatting with us. I’ve enjoyed getting to know you over the last few months and I’m excited about your newest books.

Want to meet some other interesting authors check out:

Meet author Randall Krzak, Randy had a rich career working for the US Government before he retired in 2011. Learn more about Randy here.

Get to know author Trin Carl, Trin writes YA and Literary fiction and enjoys contemporary dance. Meet Trin here.

Check out author JB Reynolds, JB lives in rural Northland, New Zealand, where he raises children and chickens. Learn more about JB here.

Well, Scribblers, that’s all for this week. If you have questions for Ava please drop them in the comments below. If you could please share this interview it really does help, as does clicking on the little heart below. Until next time have a great week.

About Catch a Falling Snowflake:

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The previous winter, Leon followed his twin sister Sara to a new town where she could be with her partner, Amber. There, Leon’s boyfriend Nick, friends Jeff and Daniel, and their nine-year-old daughter Abby, swiftly swept him up into their lives, a newfound family.

After a year of growing their relationship, Leon is ready to take it to the next level. Nick, however, has been stalling. When Ben, Abby’s best friend, is suddenly abandoned, Leon is excited to finally care for the children he’s always wanted. Haunted by the mistakes of his past, Nick attempts to reconcile his feelings of inadequacy as a parent with Leon’s wishes.

Against the backdrop of winter holidays filled with traditions from around the world, it is up to Leon to decide if he’s willing to stand by Nick, or if he should find his happiness elsewhere.

Catch a Falling Snowflake, the fourth story in the Snow Globes holiday series, can be read as a stand-alone, but greater enjoyment will come with reading about these characters in the order written.

Find out more about Catch a Falling Snowflake at the following:

Ninestar Press here.

Amazon here.

Barnes and Noble here.

Apple Books here.

Smashwords here.

Kobo here.

About Ava Kelly:

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Ava Kelly is an engineer with a deep passion for stories. Whether reading, watching, or writing them, Ava has always been surrounded by tales of all genres. Their goal is to bring more stories to life, especially those of friendship and compassion, those dedicated to trope subversion, those that give the void a voice, and those that spawn worlds of their own.

Ava’s publication history began over two decades ago. Starting with poetry and flash fiction, Ava has gradually moved toward lengthier works. Today they are partial to ownvoices stories. Representation matters!

In another life (and under the pseudonym Vel), Ava is an artist specializing in conceptual photography. Vel has had various live VJ performances, several art shows, and their words have been immortalized as song lyrics. From 2007 to 2012 Vel has been the co-editor of the N-Sphere Art Magazine and curator of the Spheres Virtual Art Gallery.

In the other another life, Ava is tinkering with artificial intelligence, robots, and all sorts of systems; this work has been made available to researcher peers in over 40 publications across the world.

Where to Find Ava:

Find Ava’s website here.

Find Ava on Patreon here.

Find Ava on Twitter here.

Find Ava on Goodreads here.

Find Ava on Instagram here.

Find Ava on Facebook here.

Virtual Readings, Virtual Events, Anthology Coming Soon

Happy Wednesday Scribblers, I hope you are all having a wonderful week.  Can you believe we are little over a week away from Christmas and fifteen days from the start of the new year? What an insane 2020 we’ve had and I would be lying if I said I’m gonna miss this year. Despite the long road ahead, there is a light at the end of the tunnel and 2021 will be a good year, fingers crossed. Despite 2020 being a less than stellar, there have been some high points. My publisher NineStar Press has picked up two more of my books; The Called and Conspiracy-A New World (Book 3). Also, this month has been busy for me and my writing. Let me share the highlights with:

December 4, 2020 started my month off with a virtual reading with the gang from Queer Sacramento. It was a wonderful virtual event with some fantastic authors. I’m happy to join these great writers, we always have a blast.  Here is where you can find the whole group of readings:

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On December 6, 2020, I was invited to take part in the 8th annual LocalLit 202 event jointly hosted by the San Jose Public Library and San Jose State University. You can find out more about the event and all the other authors here . I was asked to be part of the SciFi and Mystery Panel. You will be able to view the whole event on YouTube here once they upload the video.

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Then on December 12, 2020, the amazing authors of the Bay Area Queer Writers Association (BAQWA find out more about the group here), celebrated their one-year anniversary with a virtual reading event.  You can check out the readings here.


Up next on December 14, 2020, my short story, A Dragon for Christmas (check it out here) was selected by Nobody Reads Short Stores (learn more about them here) to be their end of year reading performance. After the reading by the amazing cast, I was part of a live Q&A. It was so much fun.  Check out the video performance here.

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Lastly, this December, 2020 A More Perfect Union Anthology (A Voting-Themed Romance Anthology benefiting Fair Fight learn more about Fair Fight here.) will go up for preorder, with a release date of January 18, 2021. A More Perfect Union is a series of short stories that has been put together to benefit Fair Fight in Georgia all funds raised from the sale of this anthology will go to Fair Fight. I was honored to be asked to provide a story for the anthology. My short story is called: Election Night.

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Election Night – Blurb

Elections are stressful enough, and none more than this one. With so much riding on the vote this year, Sammy needed involvement to get her candidate elected and into the Whitehouse. Now on election night she’s had a terrible day, but plans to work until the bitter end. Already late for her volunteering, Sammy rushes for the ancient building elevator, mercifully being held for her by an attractive stranger. More than an election is held in the balance when the elevator gets stuck between floors and Sammy finds out that the woman stuck with her works for the enemy camp. Who will win the election, and how will these two women make it out of the elevator in one piece?

Learn more about the anthology and the authors here. You can learn more about the short story I contributed to the anthology here. You can preorder the new novel here.


Well Scribblers, that has been my month, so there has been a lot going on. Thank you all for continuing this journey with me. Without your love and support I wouldn’t be able to keep going.

Do you want to learn more about my two novels coming out in 2021? Check out The Called here and Conspiracy-A New World(Book 3) here.

That’s all for this week. If you have questions or want to learn more about what I have coming up next check out my events page here. If you have any questions please drop them in the comments below. Please consider sharing this post it really does help, as does clicking on this little heart below. Don’t forget you can buy signed copies of my books here (at this time I can only ship in the US). Until next time have a great week.

Interview with Gar McVey-Russell

Happy Wednesday Scribblers, I hope you are having a wonderful week so far. This week I’m thrilled to have fellow author Gar McVey-Russell over on my blog for a chat about his novel Sin Against the Race. Gar is also one of the amazing writers from the Bay Area Queer Writers Association whom I’ve gotten to know over the last several months. let’s get to know this incredible author and his work.

Welcome Gar, thank you for taking the time to drop by and chatting with us. We have your bio below, by way of introduction, why don’t you share with us something that isn’t in your bio.

Thank you for chatting with me! Something not in the bio. I used to ride motorcycles, exclusively, for 23 years. I haven’t been on a bike in about 13 years now, but I still have fond memories of the rides.

One of the things I found fascinating in your bio is that you wanted to be an astronomer. What was the drive behind that? Why did you decide to leave it behind?

“Out there” fascinates me. We have no idea how large a place the universe is, and its boundlessness and possibilities fascinate me. I love looking at the planets through my telescope and I love pictures of galaxies. My current wallpaper on my computer is of a galaxy (NGC 1300 for the nerds out there). Why didn’t I become an astronomer? I couldn’t hack the higher math. I’m nerdy, but my brain just isn’t built that way.

You mention you are a fan of Doctor Who and Star Trek (as am I). I have to know, which is your favorite Doctor and why? Also, which Star Trek is your favorite and who is your favorite captain?

I have a theory that if you talk to someone of a certain age in the UK, you can figure out their age by asking who their favorite Doctor was. Chances are their favorite was on the air when they were 8 years old. It’s almost infallible! As an American fan of a certain age (started watching on PBS in 1980), my first Doctor is of course Tom Baker, the first to cross the pond, and he remains my favorite. Whimsical, serious, righteous, he checked all the boxes. And no one could rattle off technobabble better.

For Star Trek…there are so many now, and I haven’t seen the newer ones. I love the original probably because of the relationships. And Spock is a dream character beautifully realized by the late great Leonard Nimoy. But the captain I would want to meet is Picard. We can have high tea! (Earl Gray, of course). And a shout out to Deep Space Nine, which I thought had very intelligent stories and characters.

Getting into your novel Sin Against the Race, what was the inspiration for the story? Why did you feel this story needed to be told?

I wanted to tell a coming out story from a Black perspective and have it involve established Black institutions: The Black church and the Black political establishment. I disagree that there are “too many” coming out stories. There are as many coming out stories as there are queer folks, and they all have their differences and nuances. We haven’t exhausted “boy meets girl” stories, have we? And it’s been how many millennia?

When I came out, I felt like I had spent the first part of my life invisible to everyone, including to myself. Thus, Ralph Ellison’s Invisible Man had a great influence on me. It tells the story of a nameless protagonist who others see as a reflection of who they feel he should be, but never for who he is. And as a result, he doesn’t really know who he is. That message really resonated with me.

For the story specifically, I was influenced by someone I knew back in college, an acquaintance, who was active with the Black students group. I admired him from afar because he was very active in the group and seemed quite comfortable in his own skin. But then he vanished, and the rumor was that the group had a talking to with him because he was too “flamboyant,” or words to that effect. I never knew what happened to him. But his story, or at least that version of his story that I heard, formed the backbone of what happens in Sin Against the Race.

What have you enjoyed the most about the writing process and sharing your stories so far?

I like working on puzzles. My mind often jumps around and comes up with scenes and it doesn’t always work out the way I have written it, the dreaded First Draft. I like figuring out the jigsaw and putting it together in the best way possible. I always say that whatever I write has to be in service to the story. And I like to put stories out there because I like to part of the storytelling community. We’re all storytellers. Gossiping is storytelling. Jokes are storytelling. Songs are storytelling.

What can you tell us about the characters of your book? What can you tell us about Alfonso Rutherford Berry III?

Alfonso is the “invisible man” of the story, trying to figure out who he is. He has certain expectations placed upon him, being the son and grandson of noted Black political leaders. So, he knows that he has to enter the “family business.” But he also knows that he has his own interests and wants and drives that have nothing to do with being a politician. Alfonso is definitely political in the sense that he feels a motivation to fight for what he believes in; he just doesn’t want to do it as a politician.

Alfonso has a lot of friends that become part of his support group, his “family of choice,” after coming out. Some are friends of his cousin Carlton, who died of AIDS just before the story starts. Carlton’s death motivates Alfonso to look at his own life and he starts to explore some of his late cousin’s world. He hadn’t before because he was too afraid of what his father would say. Following Carlton’s advice, Alfonso seeks out and meets Sammy, who runs a local corner store or bodega and is sort of the den mother of the Black queer neighborhood close to Alfonso’s family home. Sammy is in his 60s, he’s a jazz musician, and has a backstory that explains why he feels so compelled to support young Black queer kids coming out into the life.

And Alfonso has friends around his own age, in particular Bill and Roy. Bill goes to Alfonso’s church and Roy knew Carlton and is friends with Sammy, so that brings things around full circle. All three attend the same college, which is how they meet.

You have gotten some amazing reviews for the novel including a write up from The Advocate in their, “One of “the Best Books We Read in 2018: LGBTQ Novels”. You must be very proud of this novel. What has all the positive feedback meant to you?

I’m like, oh wow, I guess I can write! It’s been very humbling. In particular I received a review on Amazon from someone in the UK. They found the story very uplifting and affirming, which I find quite humbling. As a writer, it feels amazing to know you can affect someone’s life so positively.

What can we see coming out from you next?

I’m writing a story about gay runaways, one of whom faced being sent to a gay conversion camp. So, he runs away from home. But he has a thick and heavy backstory. The story has been kicking my ass for a lot of reasons, but it’s coming along. Slowly.

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Gar thank you so much for stopping by today and chatting with us.  It’s been amazing to get to know you, and please if you ever have high tea with Captain Picard send an invite my way I would love to join the two of you.

Well, Scribblers, that’s all for this week. If you have questions for Gar please drop them in the comments below. If you could please share this interview it really does help, as does clicking on this little heart below. Until next time have a great week.

About Sin Against the Race:

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Alfonso Rutherford Berry III—son of a city councilman, grandson of the state’s first African American legislator—believes that history has ordained for him but one life, and it ain’t his first love: dancing. But after a series of tragedies, starting with the death of his fierce, out cousin Carlton, his assumptions explode in his face along with his closet door.

Alfonso emerges into the life on a blanket of the jazz and blues he shared with Carlton. He hangs on Carver Street, the queer Northside of his largely black neighborhood. There, he is befriended by Carlton’s familiars: Sammy, a local storekeeper and neighborhood den mother, Bingo, a leather queen and nurse practitioner, Vera, a transgender activist and photographer, and Charlotte, his father’s political rival. At college, he becomes tight with two freshmen: Roy, an aspiring actor and acquaintance from high school and Bill, a new member of his church. He also finds love (and peril) in the form of Jameel, a long-time crush. His new life sets him on a collision course with his father, his church, and the family legacy established by his revered late grandfather.

Written in taut prose steeped in history and current events—and seasoned with the blues—Sin Against the Race follows the coming-of-age journey of a young black gay man as he progresses from an invisible councilman’s son to a formidable presence in his community.

Find more posts and information about Sin Against the Race here.

About Gar McVey-Russell:

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Gar McVey-Russell began writing early in life, but thought he wanted to be an astronomer. (He also thought he was straight. Go figure.)

At UCLA, he co-created a left-leaning paper called Free Association. He also wrote commentaries for The Daily Bruin and feature articles for the LGBTQ newsmagazine Ten Percent, for which he received an award.

Gar began fiction writing in the early 90s. His work has appeared in Sojourner: Black Gay Voices in the Age of AIDS (1993), and other publications.

Sin Against the Race (2017) is his first novel.

Gar is married and lives in Oakland. And while he does not study the stars professionally, he does own a telescope and is an avid fan of Doctor Who and Star Trek.

Where to Find Gar:

Facebook: www.facebook.com/garmcveyrussell

Instagram: @garmcveyrussell

Twitter: @the_gar_spot

Tips for Getting Online Sites to Publish Your Work by Patrick Bailey

Happy Wednesday everyone. This week I welcome Patrick Bailey to my blog to share his tips for getting online sites to publish your work. If you have an idea for a blog post that you would like to share, contact me and let’s chat about it. I’m always open to guest bloggers.

Check out one of my other guest blogs by Thao Nguyen on The 10 Best Covers of 2020 (So Far).

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So, you want to get published online. You’re in good company. According to some estimates, nearly 200 million people want to publish. The chances of publishing a book seem like they’re one-in-a-million, but those odds are substantially better for those looking to publish your writing to online sites or portals.

The difference between a successful online writer and aspiring one can involve a few very simple tips. Here are some tips that could give you a fighting chance in the submission and online publication process.

Follow the submission guidelines.

One of the easiest ways for online publishers to weed through the onslaught of submissions is to quickly verify whether the writers have followed the publishers’ submission guidelines. The guidelines often encourage you to download a sample of the publication to see the type of articles it publishes, but the publication might also request you to incorporate specific formatting and stylistic features.

Note if the publication only accepts submissions during certain times of the year, or if it’s requesting submissions based on scheduled themes throughout the year. For example, if the publication is accepting submissions about inpatient alcohol rehab, the editor will not accept submissions covering other topics or subject areas.

Proofread.

Another common reason why editors reject work is that the submissions have problems with grammar, spelling, and/or usage. When a submission is riddled with errors, the editor or reviewer may assume that there are deeper, more systemic problems with the submission.

Beyond accuracy, the submission could have issues with clarity or coherence. The messy work could point to lapses in understanding or judgment and could hint at a relationship that could be thorny and unproductive from an editorial point of view. If it’s impossible for you to proofread your own work, ask a friend or colleague who can honestly and thoroughly review your work prior to submission or hire the services of a professional editor.

Target Your Audience.

Yet another important part of reviewing the submission guidelines is determining your audience. Who are you writing for and to?

Your target audience may be a person in his or her forties who is planning a great adventure. Or it could be a 20-year-old individual who is looking for addiction treatment options or other medical assistance. The audience you’re writing for could be your best friend or your worst enemy. It’s essential to know your audience so that you can craft your writing style in a way that will meet the needs and desires of that demographic.

Polish Your Query.

For many submissions, your query letter is the first impression the editor or reviewer will receive regarding your writing. Until they read your query, you are just one of the many writers who are hoping to capture their attention. So, try to do that.

You need to carefully incorporate tidbits from the submission guidelines to demonstrate that you know what editors and reviewers want, but then you must show them that you have the level of expertise that makes you the best person who can deliver on the topic.

Hook Your Reader.

Hooking your reader is part of the query, but you must take that compelling force of words through to the submission. You must inspire your reader to sit up and take notice, but you also need to make your case so intriguing that he or she is enticed to read to the very end.

It’s like hooking a fish. After you’ve caught it, you have it where you want it. Then, you have to reel it in and close the deal with your words.

Make the Organization Clear.

You’ve probably seen all sorts of clever techniques that relate to organizing your writing. That might be great when you’re an established writer with a string of editors who are waiting for your next submission. But when you’re making your first submission, the organization has to be clear and concise.

Instead, focus on making sense. Yes, the editor and reviewer might guess what you’re up to when you take poetic/creative license, but to make your submission stand out, make your organization clear. Your editors will thank you.

Speak with Your Own Voice.

Here, too, you might have a wonderful sense of mimicry and inspired creative diction, but when you’re submitting a piece for publication, write it in a straightforward way. Let your own voice shine.

Let your editors know that you have something to say and say it. Don’t leave the editor or reviewer guessing what you’re trying to do. Worse yet, don’t let them think that you’re trying to steal another’s voice.

Be Honest with Yourself.

How would you assess your article? It’s sometimes easy to be so relieved when you’ve finished a submission that you send it in right away. You don’t let it sit for a while. You don’t review the guidelines. You might even neglect another round of proofreading.

Remember, though, that writing is not something that can be rushed. It takes time and effort. Sometimes you need to take a step back and be honest with yourself. Is this submission something that you’d like to read? Is it good, maybe even great? How could it be better?

If you were the only person in the world who was submitting your work for publication, you might not really have to worry about quality. You may not even care what people think. You’d be a shoo-in.

But, you’re facing steep competition to have your work published. You’re competing against some of the most brilliant and creative minds in the world. Your work can’t just be good. It has to be great. Is your submission up to par?

Sources

lunchticket.org - On the Importance of Following Submission Guidelines

emeraldgrouppublishing.com - Proofreading Your Manuscript

umgc.edu - Online Guide to Writing and Research

stlcc.edu - Hooking Your Reader

unr.edu - University Writing & Speaking Center

Being Thankful

Happy Wednesday Scribblers I hope you’re all doing well today. Since US Thanksgiving is coming up next week (can you believe it) I thought I would spend some time sharing all the things I’m thankful for. I also, thought doing this would be a good reminder, especially for myself, given all that has been happening in the world and here at home these last several months.

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To start, I’m thankful for is being healthy. Given everything that has happened with COVID-19 I’m grateful that I’ve remained healthy, not only me but Eric and my dad as well. I’m hopeful we will continue to remain in good health as we continue down this crazy path that has been 2020 and into whatever will come our way in 2021.

Continuing on, I’m thankful that Eric and I have been able to work and our jobs have been stable during this time. A lot of people have not been so fortunate, so even though there are days were work can be insane I’m grateful. I’m also grateful for the work I do, my agency has helped thousands of people during this awful time and we will continue to do so. Knowing this makes me doubly blessed.

This is a two-for-one, I’m grateful to have both a safe place to live and plenty of food to eat. It’s something many of us take for granted and I definitely want it to be known how grateful I am.

Tying into the first one on my list, I’m thankful that a majority of my family and friends have also remained healthy during this. Sadly, this is not 100%, we lost a few people to this terrible pandemic and they will be missed. However, a majority of everyone we know remain healthy. Which I’m very thankful for.

Next up, is that I’m thankful to have published six books with two more coming out next year. This has been incredible and I’m so blessed to have this experience. Oh and if you haven’t read all my books, you can find them here or anywhere else you buy books from.

Fitting in with having these amazing books published is that I’m thankful for all of you who continue to support me and my writing. These last several years have been amazing and I couldn’t be prouder to have gotten to know you all and hear from you. I look forward to this pandemic being behind us so I can get out there and meet folks face-to-face again.

And last on my list, is meeting so many fellow authors (both members of and nonmembers of the Queer Community) they are all wonderful and supportive. They really have been a joy to get to know and learn from.

That’s my list. I’m sure there is a bunch of stuff I’m missing, but I believe this covers the big stuff. If you enjoyed this week’s post check out some of my other posts that are positive and uplifting in case you need the pick-me-up:

The Week Before Thanksgiving. In this blog post, I focus on all that is good as I work through my preholiday funk. Check it out here.

Stop Being Negative and Don’t be a Jerk. Really, it’s all about being a better human being. In this Memorial Day post, I share my thoughts on not being a jerk (something I still struggle with). Check it out here.

Thank you all for stopping by and taking a few minutes to show your support. It really does mean the world to me. What are you thankful for? Have you taking the time to count your blessings? Please remember to drop me a heart/like letting me know you stopped by. If you found my insights interesting think about sharing it. Got a question or want to share what you are thankful for feel free to leave it in the comments below. Until next time I hope you stay safe and have a great week.

Kindness

Happy Wednesday Scribblers I hope everyone is doing well today and you are all taking good care of yourselves. This week I want to talk about kindness…

Ugh. I hear you all saying.

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But, being kind is something in short supply these days and has been in short supply for quite some time. Given everything that has happened the last several years and especially the last several months I’m asking people to be kind to one another. Kindness doesn’t cost anything and is pretty easy.

I’m not asking you to do anything else, you don’t have to embrace your abuser, you don’t have to be passive, you don’t have to hide your hurt, you don’t have to hide your anger. You don’t have to hide your glee. You aren’t being asked to tone done the celebrations. All you need to do is be kind.

Why do I keep saying this? Why do I keep asking you to be kind to one another?

Here’s the thing. I remember as a kid all the awful and horrible things that were said about me and too me. I remember being bullied, I remember crying and wondering why no one liked me. I remember someone threatening to throw me into a fire because no one like me and everyone wanted me dead (yes this really happened).

As I got older, I remember being called more names and having people threaten me to the point where a sheriff had to follow me home for several days to ensure I wasn’t attacked or beaten up…or worse.

As I got older still, I was lucky and I was able to melt into the background of High School I wasn’t picked on too much, which was a relief. After school, once I came out and started going to clubs with my friends, the name calling, the threats, the bullying, etc. started back up.  A friend and I were attacked one night and, on another night, we were harassed by the police.

Once I joined the working world (with a real job), I had a boss who was a bully. He would hover over me not saying anything and watch me. The abuse got so bad that I ended up in therapy for a while. It got so bad, that when I went to the big boss, I was told I should quit because they weren’t going to do anything about it. I resigned at that point and went to a lawyer to see what could be done only to find out there was nothing that they could do. The Lawyer would be happy to file suit, but the odds of me winning were less than zero and it would cost me a fortune. They also said that any media attention would ruin my chances of getting hired anywhere.

I was in my mid-twenties.

Why am I sharing any of this, most of which I haven’t thought about in years, because through all this, I tried to remain kind to people. I smiled, I laughed, I lived my life as best I could. I figured the only thing I had any control over was how I reacted. I didn’t come by this realization alone, it took therapy. Anyway, I could have been angry. I could have been cruel. I could have been petty. I could have treated them just as badly as they treated me.

And, yes, there were times I did all of that.

The company that forced me to quit, made the mistake of telling me I could still attend the company Christmas Party. Oh, and did I attend. I called one of my best friends at the time, who happened to be gorgeous and asked if he would help me in a little pay back. He jumped at the idea. We showed up at the party all decked out, and we put on a show. The boss who asked for my resignation was there of course and so was my bully. I ignored them both and turned my back on them and walked off when they came up to greet us. The rest of the night my buddy and I danced, made out, and made sure that this last work event I went to went down in the history books. I was so proud of myself for the way I handled it. I showed them. I gave them a taste of all the BS they had forced on me and they had to take it. Every bit of it.

I felt vindicated.

Then a couple days later I heard, that no one cared. That I looked petty. I looked childish. All I had done was reinforce their opinions about me. Not only had I burned that bridge, but I blew it up, salted the Earth and nuked the surroundings.

Was it a personal victory? Sure.

Am I proud of what I did and how I acted? Not really.

Despite this being what I would call a victory it meant nothing to them. They could point to me and how I acted and say, “That’s what we dealt with daily. That’s why he’s not here anymore.”

None of true. But it didn’t matter. I had made such a show of it, that people believed them.

I didn’t make a point. I didn’t make a statement. I played the fool and looked the part.

I wonder what would have happened if I showed up and was kind. Thankful for all the wonderful people I met there. If I held up my head and treated them the way I always wanted them to treat me. What if I shook their hands, smiled and thanked them? Could I have done it? I would like to think so, but I can’t say for sure, because I was so hurt and angry.

The reality is I’ll never know.

I believe 100% that what I should have done, is been kind at the very least. I could have smiled. Talked to my friends and been polite to my former boss and not turned my back on them and walk way. Then they would have had nothing negative to say about me, and they would have looked like idiots when people asked why I wasn’t there anymore.

Ah well. A lessoned learned I suppose.

What I want you think about is this, what does it cost you to be kind? How does it make you look? Why should you take the high road? What will people in your wake of nastiness say about you? Because trust me there will be a wake, people won’t forget. They may understand and agree but in the back of their minds they will always questions when you are going to blow up or act up again and are they going to be on the receiving end.

That is the cost that hinds behind cruelty and hate.

For me I’m not kind for any of them. I do it for me. I do it so I can hold my head high and know that despite all the awful, horrible things that are done and said to me. I didn’t let them win. I showed them that they can’t pull me down. That at the end of the day I was the better person. I did what was right. Even though it hurt and was hard as hell, I passed the test of being a decent human being.

You don’t have to embrace your enemy to be kind. You just have to show them that they have no power over you. You aren’t giving them space in your mind or in your emotions. Despite all the crap they put you through, here you are; strong, powerful, in charge, and living your best life. They didn’t win. You won.

You won!

You won, because they mean so little to you that nothing they did affected you. Even if you go home and need to cry, or whatever you have to do to heal. When it comes down to it, when you are petty, nasty, and mean. You are validating the worst that they pointed out in you, and not only did you show them, but you showed the rest of world too.

Be kind. It costs you nothing.

Being kind isn’t giving up. It’s not condoning their behavior. Being kind is you keeping your power and your strength. Kindness shows the world that you can go out and fight for all that is good in the world. You can fight for the change you want to see and at the end of the day, you can still be a kind and good person. Your victory won’t be built on cruelty or nastiness, but on a smile and a kind word.

Some of you won’t agree with me. Some of you are still hurt and angry by so many things. I know nothing anyone will say will change that and I’m sorry.

I’ll tell you all this truth about me. There is a lot I’m still hurt and angry about. I still think people don’t like me. I still live in the world where someone is trying to push me into a fire because no one could ever like or care about me. Sometimes, I still hear my former boss standing over my shoulder breathing, watching me work, just to torture me. When I see a sheriff’s vehicle my mind flashes to when I had to have an escort home from school so nothing would happen to me. When I see a police car I often think is this person going to pull me over and harass me. When Eric and I are out on the streets or somewhere public I look over my shoulder to see where he is and to see if anyone is watching us or going to say or do something to us. Those hurts and fears never go away, they are there, at least for me.

But I don’t let them make me bitter and angry.

At the end of the day. I’m still going to be kind, or at least try to be. Because out of everything, that is what I can control.

That’s all I got for you. If you are still reading and want a bit more from me. Check out some of these past posts you might enjoy:

Where has all our Mutual Respect Gone?

This is another piece about how we treat each other and why at the very least we need to have some kind of mutual respect (much easier said than done). Click here.

Where has all our Mutual Respect Gone?

Want to hear my thoughts on “Polite Society” and how I don’t always agree with it. Check out this post here.

 All about San Jose, California.

This is a fun post about my home town. Where I grew up and where me and Eric live. Click here to learn more, especially since it’s the location where most of my books are set.

I hope you enjoyed, or at least got through this and understand a bit more about me. Please remember to drop me a heart/like letting me know you stopped by. If you found this information interesting think about sharing it. Got a question feel free to ask in the comments below and I’ll do my best to answer it. Until next time I hope you stay safe and have a great week.